This happened many months back. I felt like sharing it with you today.
I saw a dream very vividly, it was someone I knew getting shot in front of me in super bizarre circumstances and I was shocked out of my guts & trying to comprehend what happened. I remember a thought entering my mind in my dream “We die every single day and take birth every day” and I woke up with that thought engraved in me.
That day I go for the yoga session and my yoga guru tells me to breathe while doing the asana. “The old tissues are going to get discarded from the body and new ones will be formed so keep breathing deeply. ”
It is so true, every single day so many cells of our body die and so many of them are formed. And we are not even aware of that death and birth cycle that goes on in our body.
if we understand this process then we aren’t the same person, the same body we were few months back.
His sentence just hit a chord, a strong feeling overtook me.
I started to question myself as to why do I cry over dead moments, those moments that are gone and will never come back?
Why do I have regret over those dead moments which can’t be revived and can’t be lived again?
What happened in past is dead, gone and over. If I can’t go back in time to rectify the mistakes I made, is there a point in having that regret of not doing it correctly?
Having said that had I not made those mistakes, I wouldn’t have been the same person that I am today.
So the question I need to ask myself isn’t whether the past can be rectified but “Do I like this person, I have become today?”
If the answer is Yes, then I have done few things right as well in the process 🙂
If No! then what is it that’s in my hands and what is it that I can do to make my life a happier and a better one so that I like the person I am.
What is yet to come and what I am living now is of importance. Now is in my hands and in the Now, I can create wonderful, beautiful moments by staying in the awareness.
In the Now, I can take the step to be a better version of myself so that I can be in love with that person I have become. And when I look at myself in the mirror, I can tell myself “I love you.”
There was this exercise we were made to do as a part of Self Acceptance. We were to stand in-front of the mirror look into the eyes of this person we saw at the other side our image and say it out loud, “I love you!” with all our feelings.
It was terrifying for me to even look into my own eyes. All I could see was flaws in this person standing infront of me. So many areas she could do better and be better.
and Today, when I look into my eyes I can feel the love and definitely say it out loud to myself, “I love you.”
Now that doesn’t mean that all my flaws have gone and I have become this perfect person. It only means that I have become comfortable in my own skin and I have accepted my imperfections as me.
I have let go of my past to define me, dropped the baggages I was carrying and I have opened my arms to the abundance of all that is yet to come to me.
From my heart to yours 💕