“A dark cloud is no sign that the sun has lost his light”
When Reiki first came into my life, I was unaware that it will change my life forever. My introduction to ‘Reiki was through a fellow dancer in some dance class and I saw him all glowing, calm and composed. I don’t even remember his name now.
All I know is, he was an angel who pointed me in a direction which changed the course of my life forever. He told stories how Reiki brought in changes in his life and sorted him in many ways.
I was 31 at that time, married yet so clueless about life and self. So I thought to myself it won’t do any harm to me if I tried this. The very idea of it was so exciting. I was eager to know what will it bring in my life that I immediately contacted the teacher and without even experiencing Reiki, I learned the modality.
When my initiation into Reiki happened, I sobbed and sobbed. I kept wondering what moved within.I used to cry at the drop of a hat yet the quality of this catharsis was very different from my other outbursts.
This is what Reiki Healing does, I realized later in life.
My life situations were difficult while growing up and they had made me super complicated. I was a sensitive touchy person. After my initiation into Reiki; life started to look even more complex and complicated. Too many files from my past, some very uncomfortable ones started to open up. All my issues and traumas started to face me head on. All I knew I had to sort all the tangled parts of me.
Slowly and steadily I kept working on my self and started to understand my own nature. Who I was, what my inclinations were, what my likes and dislikes were. How to be in a social circle without being hurt and rude to others. How to express myself in a gentler and a better manner. In the process I also resalised how people come in our lives mirroring our own issues. They keep pressing our buttons till the time we learn to deal with our mess.They teach us valuable lessons.
Over a period of time, I started to become simple, uncomplicated.
I didn’t know the whys and whats of it then. With better clarity bout myself I know now, it was to sort all that was enmeshed in my psyche. It was to completely break open the old me to create this new positive and open person I was becoming. It was all being done so that I could enjoy and nourish myself, and to make my future abundant, calm and peaceful.
It was as if I had taken a rebirth and my eyes opened for the first time. I was able to see life with much more clarity and a better perspective. I became a student of life and life ever since has taught many wonderful lessons.
I can safely say today Reiki opened it all up for me. It created ME. Had it not been for Reiki I wouldn’t have known myself the way I do now.
It has been a superb journey with many twists and turns. It definitely has taken me to my darkest secrets and to the darkest of hours,but only to bring light there. It also has helped me make friends with my shadows, those so called negativeparts of me. Fears, pains, guilt, anger, rejectction, betrayal to name few of them.
Shadows, I tried to run away from, shadows I was most fearful of. But don’t we all know, we can never outrun our shadows. So I took a pause and faced them dreadfully. Eventually, I could see the lighter side of what the shadows were trying to tell me 🙂
I am still learning about myself and will keep learning. I know today that I am my only competition and the only companion. Only I can either destroy or make myself.
I choose to build myself every single day by choosing to see the light in every situation, accepting and loving even my shadows. For there can be no light without darkness.
What about you?
Are you ready to face your demons?
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From my heart to yours <3